Enjoying the Changes as I Become More and More Sub...

I'm sorry it's been a few months since my last post. I have been following a lot of the cuckold and fem-dom graphical logs on Tumblr. But frankly, I find that nothing beats the written communication from a real blog.  However, it does require a lot more time investment.  A few of you seem to enjoy it at least, and it's a great venting and release opportunity for me.

For those of you into cuckolding, femdom, or some of these related kinks, I am betting that this entry will ring true with you.  I am writing about the evolution...the changes in the relationship and in our sexuality that seem to progress from the first time your lady fucks another man, or from the first time you suck cock or wear panties, etc.  It's amazing to me how we grow and change.

There are even physical changes in me that are more and more evident.  First, there is no doubt that my problem with premature ejaculation has gotten worse!  I am almost certainly worse at fucking her than I was a year ago.  Some of this is no doubt because of her enjoyment of teasing me with relentless hand jobs and slutty talk.  She strokes and plays with my cock almost constantly and I'm constantly begging her to stop or take it easy on me. We have an understanding that ALL my orgasms are to be controlled by her.  This means that I cannot make myself cum without her permission or participation.  I do wear the chastity cage a good bit, but not constantly.  So, when she is playing with me, I always assume she will ultimately want me to fuck her...so I'm fearful that I'll cum to fast.  She is relentless and does not listen to me very well...most of the time she stops in time to leave me dripping at the edge.  However, she also likes to ruin my orgasms.  It's happened dozens of times now and her sympathy for my plight during a ruined orgasm is noticeably less.

So, with all this stimulation and orgasm denial, maybe it's not surprising that my control over my orgasms is getting worse.  I should note that I have never cum without stimulation or before entering her...so I guess my problem isn't as extreme as some guys.  In order to be clear, let me give a little more information.  For instance, if she takes my cock out and starts pumping me with the intent to get me close, then it requires well under a minute to get me to the edge...from 5 to 50 strokes I think.  If it's fucking though, it can be much worse....from 1 stroke to 20 strokes is common.  This has been frustrating for her, so we've used the cock sleeve/extension quite a bit.

I have read elsewhere that chastity cages can lead to problems sustaining erections and premature cumming.  In my case, this is definitely true...being denied for a week or more will always lead to a quick pop.  Both she and I have the dream that we will find her a few regular guys who can always give her the hard and long fucking that she needs, so the consequences of my cumming are mitigated.  She fucks a few guys, but none are very regular at the moment...still an ongoing search.  But in the mean time, my lady has had to be satisfied with getting off on her fingers, the vibrator, my tongue, or the cock sleeve.

This in turn just makes me feel more submissive and feminine.  She enjoys my cumming...laughs a lot, feeds me a lot of cum, plus she also knows that I love the humiliation.  Maybe this is some kind of process that makes me subservient to her, more sissified, or something like that.  Just this weekend after talking her through a wonderful orgasm and giving her lots of tongue and helping her use her vibrator, she commented on being completely satisfied...not needing my cock.  It had been days since I'd cum, so she let me fuck her hand to a ruined orgasm.  Then later when I begged and got her off again on her vibe and fingers, she let me slip my cock into her drenched pussy after her orgasm.  I got my "little cock" in, but she wriggled her ass and pussy and pulled the cum out before I could complete 5 strokes.  She laughed and pushed my cock out, asking if I enjoyed my "little pity fuck".

She knows I like to service a local guy orally...in fact, she encourages me to do it as long as I don't cum from it.  He isn't interested in touching me or my pleasure, so that's not a problem.  I wear panties quite often, in part so I feel more feminine and submissive to him.  I have also totally shaved my cock and balls, just because it looks better in panties and chastity cages...she completely agrees.

She claims that she doesn't want me too feminine and I'm not a sissy...but my shaved cock sure looks feminine in panties!  She also feeds me a lot of cum and encourages me to suck cock whenever I can.  She has fucked some big cocks lately, and I'm so proud that she admits to wanting a regular fuck mate with a bigger cock and better control than mine.  Hell, her biggest fantasy is to have a dominant man fuck her good while talking to me and demonstrating how a "real man" fucks her!

Even as I get myself to the edge and know that I will not break the rules and cum without her permission, I feel desperately slutty and needy.  But now things have changed...I now NEED to feel slutty and needy in order to cum!

I hope you enjoy and I'd love to hear from you on here or at my email: curiousrob9900 at yahoo dot com.

She's Gaining Control and I Love It

As I've written, we are new to Fem Dom...so we explore and test limits and find more and more pleasure. She's enjoyed the cock extension more times now than I can count.  When we use it, we have the closeness of my fucking her, but she comes on that big cock without fail.  I just can't last long enough to make her cum that way and I certainly don't fill her up like it does.

She is still an incredibly generous and giving lover...more so than ever.   So it's not as though all our sex is focused on her dominating me in some way.  Hell, much of our sex isn't even kinky.  However, we do play a lot and highlight the memories, the anticipation, and the new passions that our discoveries have created.

Another area that we probably never thought we would enjoy was ruined orgasms.  For years I've enjoyed being teased and denied the release of an orgasm, but she always gave in when we took it too far.  So many times she smiled or laughed gently when I lost control and pumped my cum into her or exploded in her mouth or her hand.  So, she wasn't sure she would even be able to just sit back and watch as cum pumped or oozed out of my cock.

I had read a lot about ruined orgasms and seen many videos showing how hot it could be, but I just didn't think it would be that different from an orgasm fulfilled.  Well, she's now done it to me three times...three ruined orgasms.  And I love the experience and want a lot more.  Each time it has happened after she took me to the edge a dozen or more times.  She laughs, taunts me, teases, and just keeps pushing me toward that point of no return.  Two nights ago she gave me the most amazing ruined orgasm I could imagine...after taking me to the brink so many times and encouraging me to suck and squeeze and worship her amazing tits...she gave me one of the hottest experiences we've ever shared.

I begged her to stop pumping me but she kept at it...laughing gently...then just as I got to the brink she stopped.  The cum just didn't ooze out...it erupted and exploded.  It was a huge load, to be expected I guess since she'd denied me for over a week.  She commented about my big load as it pumped out.  Amazingly, I had drained myself, but I got very little pleasure out of it.  There was cum everywhere, which she immediately started feeding to me.  I could tell it was a different sort of orgasm because I hungrily swallowed my own cum...she noticed and kept talking to me and telling me what a slut I was!

I suppose it's all part of dominating and denying me.  We enjoy adding to the fantasy and the possibilities and I suppose longer term chastity is something we both want.  The more I read about it and learn about other people's experiences, the more I know that longer term chastity will require draining my balls and prostate every so often.  The ruined orgasm was so tantalizing to me...to think of waiting two weeks or even three, only to have my cum drained while she giggles and teases me.  God, it's incredible how much I love putting her in charge!  It's a love made deeper and stronger.

She's Calling the Shots

The last four times we've had sex, she has chosen to fuck me with the extension instead of my naked cock.  Last night was the latest, and every time is simply incredible.  Like many of you, there is something about soft humiliation that makes me crazy.  She feels my cock throb or pulse every time she teases or humiliates me a little, so I don't see her slowing down anytime soon.  She's not really a size queen...at least it hasn't been mostly about cock size with her.  But this big cock extension really does it for her.  The main reason she is asking me to use the extension is control...I have been cumming so quick that she just doesn't get a good fucking.  

Last weekend I really let her down and since then, she's insisted on my using the extension.  She was so horny and so sexy sitting on my couch and telling me to lick her pussy.  I dove in, feeling thankful as I usually do for the opportunity to lick her.  I was really working her pussy with tongue, lips, and fingers.  Her clit is amazingly sensitive and sometimes she likes to fuck my face really hard.  I was in heaven...working more and more fingers.  One of the reasons I like the opportunity to lick her and finger her aggressively is that I can get her pussy stretched out a bit.  That usually helps me last longer if I get to fuck her.  You guys who have control problems should try that.

But anyway, she was being an incredibly hot slut on this night. I had four fingers deep into her pussy and she was just flooding her pussy with lubrication.  I was nervous when she had me bring my cock closer to her face.  She has this expert touch with my cock...pumping me close to cumming at will and making me beg her to stop.  She licked me and sucked me as well.  I was way more on edge than I should have been if I was going to fuck her well.  But she got up on all fours and told me to fuck her and that I better not cum.  She made me promise I could control it, at least for a little while. I got into position, even having butterflies.  But her pussy was just perfect and my cock slipped in much easier than I expected.  

Two strokes.  Less than 5 seconds.  I stopped and begged her to stop moving too...but it had started. She could feel it...the pulses...there was no hope to hold it back.  I banged it into her as my cum oozed out.  She was cussing and complaining even as I drove it into her to finish.  I'll never forget a couple of things she said "What the fuck was that?" and later she said "Now, I'll have to go to bed completely unsatisfied.".  She told me how I hadn't even gotten started..."two strokes"..."i told you not to cum".  Then she told me to "get down there and clean it up".  God, I can't recall ever being so turned on AFTER I came.  I really went after her pussy and my cum...she fucked my face and told me to get every fucking drop.  Even though I was enjoying my cum I really did feel bad.  Her pussy was so spread open and in need of fucking.

The next morning she awoke horny but didn't even touch my cock.  She turned over and rubbed her ass against me, telling me to slip it in before I got too close to cumming.  I did...but i was careful.  After a few strokes I had to slow down again, she warned me not to cum.  And then when I had to slow down, she told me to get the extension because she didn't trust me.  I carefully slipped the extension over my aching cock and lubed it up good.  It's quite large and I don't want to hurt her.  I drove it in without feeling a thing while she moaned loudly and fucked back against it.  

This was a woman who was not going to go without being satisfied again!  I watched with amazement as the entire cock extension sunk into my lady's pussy.  She was fucking me back so hard that I could feel it in my head...even getting close to cumming once.  She was very vocal in her praise for that big cock...telling me how I could never last this long without the extension.  She came on that big cock and fucked me back hard.  I don't usually get to fuck her much after she cums...I usually cum at the same time and lose my hard on immediately.  She loved the extra fucking that I gave her with the extension.

It's becoming clear she loves this cock extension more than she lets on.  I think it really surprises her, but twice since then she's cum on the extension.  One time she got me close 8 or 10 times with her hand...giggling and teasing the whole time. She often makes me count strokes with her hand until I make her stop...once it's down to 2 or 3 strokes she knows she has all the power and she makes sure that I know that no orgasms will be permitted unless I ask permission!

When I'm like that, she doesn't even bother with fucking my naked cock at all..straight to the extension.  She has found that she can even use her clit massager when I'm using the extension.  When my cock is naked, I can't let her do that or I'll cum immediately.  Every time I've fucked her with the extension she has cum....whereas with my cock, it's probably less than half the time.

Last night was kind of a romantic mood for our sex.  We needed to be close and intimate.  But she soon realized that she needed a lot of oral too.  So once I got my tongue inside her, she began to get sluttier and sluttier...she got me close with her hand a few times.  Giggling and enjoying the effect it has on me.    Knowing my cock wouldn't be much good to her like that..she let me fuck her for a minute or two.  She kept telling me not to cum but soon realized that was futile...."I don't trust you.  Go get the extension" she said.  I slipped it on and came back to see her ass up on a pillow to give me a good angle.  I rubbed the huge head up and down her wet slit...teasing that clit a lot.  Then it slipped in, just as easy and natural as if it was mine.  She just moans softly as it goes impossibly deep.  I get butterflies again when she says again that she can't believe how good it feels, how much it feels like fucking me...except with a huge cock of course.  She came quickly as I was really figuring out how to fuck her with this huge extension.  I gave her long hard strokes that I didn't think she could handle...she handled them and loved them.  She came and I kept fucking, like I hadn't done for years.  She was thankful and loving every stroke.  

When I finally stopped and pulled out, I licked that cock extension to taste her cum.  She smiled and watched me clean it up.  She loves that.  I slipped my naked cock in her stretched out pussy for a few strokes...had to stop a lot and she laughed and told me to stop, that I couldn't be trusted. "That's enough", she said.  I love that toy...maybe I'm jealous of it too...but it has sure made us both happy.  She decides when I cum and my desire just builds and builds...and I can't tell you how amazing it is to know my woman is in control and is more than I can ever handle!!  

    

A Cuckold Couple Discovering FemDom

I'm sorry it's been so long since I wrote anything on our blog.  I suppose we got distracted when we discovered Tumblr and the photo/caption blogs there about cuckolding and female dominant relationships.  We continue to explore and stretch our horizons.  While we love a threesome with the right guy, it's just so hard to find the perfect match, so we push our own kinky interest horizons with just the two of us as well.

My lady knows I'm bi and crave cock sometimes...hell, she is into me being with guys at least as much as I am!  And she likes to tease me about how much I want cock.  So our talking soon progressed to anal play with toys and such.  I soon had to admit that I wanted her to fuck me with a strap on.

We are at a point in our relationship where she likes to control my every orgasm.  Orgasm denial is a big thing for us.  She gets any and all orgasms she wants, and I usually wait a week or more between orgasms.  She has grown to enjoy this position of power more and more.  She likes to torture and tease me and has become a master of it.  One problem has been that she prefers to cum on my cock, but I just don't have the control to fuck her much without cumming.

She is such an amazing lover that she doesn't even let that stand in the way, she enjoys teasing and humiliating me when I cum too fast.  She likes to make me count the strokes until I have to stop...or count the number of times she pumps me with her hand before I can't stand it anymore.  Typically she quickly works me down from over 100 to 6 or 7 strokes before I have to make it stop.  A few times we have screwed it up and she goes one stroke too far...resulting in my ruined orgasm.  She won't pump me to completion, but the cum sort of oozes out and I don't really have the relief of an orgasm.  Some of  you cuckolds or subs will know what an intense turn-on that kind of teasing is.

As a good sub, I am always trying to give her what she wants...good hard fucking without my cumming too fast.  So I read about these extensions that go over your cock and are thick enough that the man doesn't cum but the woman gets a good fucking.  I shopped and found a really nice one...very expensive and realistic, premium silicone...and quite big too.  It took a little practice, but now she cums every time I fuck her with this extension and I usually don't cum anymore.  You can see from the picture below what she likes about the extension.

As you can see, the extension basically doubles the size of my cock.  And it's nice and thick too.  A tip to you ladies out there who sometimes complain that dildos can be too cold...these expensive silicone extensions quickly assume body temperature.  She loves that.  The extension has been a wonderful addition to our sex life...it is pretty thick so I usually don't cum (though sometimes I have).

Perhaps the best part for me is that she chooses when she fucks the extension or when I just give her oral to get her off.  We have found a new lover for her, so hopefully you'll read more about him soon.  He is bi and loves to be sucked by man and woman...so we'll have a blast with that.  And he's already proven to have much better control than I do during sex.  We are seeing him again this weekend.

I am really enjoying how our relationship has become female led...she seeks out and gets the pleasures that she needs and that in turn takes me to new heights of arousal.  I expect to give her the ultimate control soon...she will be fucking me with a strap-on dildo really soon.  Stay tuned.

Feel free to send me questions or emails...would be wonderful to get to know more couples who are into this part of the lifestyle.