Enjoying the Changes as I Become More and More Sub...

I'm sorry it's been a few months since my last post. I have been following a lot of the cuckold and fem-dom graphical logs on Tumblr. But frankly, I find that nothing beats the written communication from a real blog.  However, it does require a lot more time investment.  A few of you seem to enjoy it at least, and it's a great venting and release opportunity for me.

For those of you into cuckolding, femdom, or some of these related kinks, I am betting that this entry will ring true with you.  I am writing about the evolution...the changes in the relationship and in our sexuality that seem to progress from the first time your lady fucks another man, or from the first time you suck cock or wear panties, etc.  It's amazing to me how we grow and change.

There are even physical changes in me that are more and more evident.  First, there is no doubt that my problem with premature ejaculation has gotten worse!  I am almost certainly worse at fucking her than I was a year ago.  Some of this is no doubt because of her enjoyment of teasing me with relentless hand jobs and slutty talk.  She strokes and plays with my cock almost constantly and I'm constantly begging her to stop or take it easy on me. We have an understanding that ALL my orgasms are to be controlled by her.  This means that I cannot make myself cum without her permission or participation.  I do wear the chastity cage a good bit, but not constantly.  So, when she is playing with me, I always assume she will ultimately want me to fuck her...so I'm fearful that I'll cum to fast.  She is relentless and does not listen to me very well...most of the time she stops in time to leave me dripping at the edge.  However, she also likes to ruin my orgasms.  It's happened dozens of times now and her sympathy for my plight during a ruined orgasm is noticeably less.

So, with all this stimulation and orgasm denial, maybe it's not surprising that my control over my orgasms is getting worse.  I should note that I have never cum without stimulation or before entering her...so I guess my problem isn't as extreme as some guys.  In order to be clear, let me give a little more information.  For instance, if she takes my cock out and starts pumping me with the intent to get me close, then it requires well under a minute to get me to the edge...from 5 to 50 strokes I think.  If it's fucking though, it can be much worse....from 1 stroke to 20 strokes is common.  This has been frustrating for her, so we've used the cock sleeve/extension quite a bit.

I have read elsewhere that chastity cages can lead to problems sustaining erections and premature cumming.  In my case, this is definitely true...being denied for a week or more will always lead to a quick pop.  Both she and I have the dream that we will find her a few regular guys who can always give her the hard and long fucking that she needs, so the consequences of my cumming are mitigated.  She fucks a few guys, but none are very regular at the moment...still an ongoing search.  But in the mean time, my lady has had to be satisfied with getting off on her fingers, the vibrator, my tongue, or the cock sleeve.

This in turn just makes me feel more submissive and feminine.  She enjoys my cumming...laughs a lot, feeds me a lot of cum, plus she also knows that I love the humiliation.  Maybe this is some kind of process that makes me subservient to her, more sissified, or something like that.  Just this weekend after talking her through a wonderful orgasm and giving her lots of tongue and helping her use her vibrator, she commented on being completely satisfied...not needing my cock.  It had been days since I'd cum, so she let me fuck her hand to a ruined orgasm.  Then later when I begged and got her off again on her vibe and fingers, she let me slip my cock into her drenched pussy after her orgasm.  I got my "little cock" in, but she wriggled her ass and pussy and pulled the cum out before I could complete 5 strokes.  She laughed and pushed my cock out, asking if I enjoyed my "little pity fuck".

She knows I like to service a local guy orally...in fact, she encourages me to do it as long as I don't cum from it.  He isn't interested in touching me or my pleasure, so that's not a problem.  I wear panties quite often, in part so I feel more feminine and submissive to him.  I have also totally shaved my cock and balls, just because it looks better in panties and chastity cages...she completely agrees.

She claims that she doesn't want me too feminine and I'm not a sissy...but my shaved cock sure looks feminine in panties!  She also feeds me a lot of cum and encourages me to suck cock whenever I can.  She has fucked some big cocks lately, and I'm so proud that she admits to wanting a regular fuck mate with a bigger cock and better control than mine.  Hell, her biggest fantasy is to have a dominant man fuck her good while talking to me and demonstrating how a "real man" fucks her!

Even as I get myself to the edge and know that I will not break the rules and cum without her permission, I feel desperately slutty and needy.  But now things have changed...I now NEED to feel slutty and needy in order to cum!

I hope you enjoy and I'd love to hear from you on here or at my email: curiousrob9900 at yahoo dot com.

She's Gaining Control and I Love It

As I've written, we are new to Fem Dom...so we explore and test limits and find more and more pleasure. She's enjoyed the cock extension more times now than I can count.  When we use it, we have the closeness of my fucking her, but she comes on that big cock without fail.  I just can't last long enough to make her cum that way and I certainly don't fill her up like it does.

She is still an incredibly generous and giving lover...more so than ever.   So it's not as though all our sex is focused on her dominating me in some way.  Hell, much of our sex isn't even kinky.  However, we do play a lot and highlight the memories, the anticipation, and the new passions that our discoveries have created.

Another area that we probably never thought we would enjoy was ruined orgasms.  For years I've enjoyed being teased and denied the release of an orgasm, but she always gave in when we took it too far.  So many times she smiled or laughed gently when I lost control and pumped my cum into her or exploded in her mouth or her hand.  So, she wasn't sure she would even be able to just sit back and watch as cum pumped or oozed out of my cock.

I had read a lot about ruined orgasms and seen many videos showing how hot it could be, but I just didn't think it would be that different from an orgasm fulfilled.  Well, she's now done it to me three times...three ruined orgasms.  And I love the experience and want a lot more.  Each time it has happened after she took me to the edge a dozen or more times.  She laughs, taunts me, teases, and just keeps pushing me toward that point of no return.  Two nights ago she gave me the most amazing ruined orgasm I could imagine...after taking me to the brink so many times and encouraging me to suck and squeeze and worship her amazing tits...she gave me one of the hottest experiences we've ever shared.

I begged her to stop pumping me but she kept at it...laughing gently...then just as I got to the brink she stopped.  The cum just didn't ooze out...it erupted and exploded.  It was a huge load, to be expected I guess since she'd denied me for over a week.  She commented about my big load as it pumped out.  Amazingly, I had drained myself, but I got very little pleasure out of it.  There was cum everywhere, which she immediately started feeding to me.  I could tell it was a different sort of orgasm because I hungrily swallowed my own cum...she noticed and kept talking to me and telling me what a slut I was!

I suppose it's all part of dominating and denying me.  We enjoy adding to the fantasy and the possibilities and I suppose longer term chastity is something we both want.  The more I read about it and learn about other people's experiences, the more I know that longer term chastity will require draining my balls and prostate every so often.  The ruined orgasm was so tantalizing to me...to think of waiting two weeks or even three, only to have my cum drained while she giggles and teases me.  God, it's incredible how much I love putting her in charge!  It's a love made deeper and stronger.

She's Calling the Shots

The last four times we've had sex, she has chosen to fuck me with the extension instead of my naked cock.  Last night was the latest, and every time is simply incredible.  Like many of you, there is something about soft humiliation that makes me crazy.  She feels my cock throb or pulse every time she teases or humiliates me a little, so I don't see her slowing down anytime soon.  She's not really a size queen...at least it hasn't been mostly about cock size with her.  But this big cock extension really does it for her.  The main reason she is asking me to use the extension is control...I have been cumming so quick that she just doesn't get a good fucking.  

Last weekend I really let her down and since then, she's insisted on my using the extension.  She was so horny and so sexy sitting on my couch and telling me to lick her pussy.  I dove in, feeling thankful as I usually do for the opportunity to lick her.  I was really working her pussy with tongue, lips, and fingers.  Her clit is amazingly sensitive and sometimes she likes to fuck my face really hard.  I was in heaven...working more and more fingers.  One of the reasons I like the opportunity to lick her and finger her aggressively is that I can get her pussy stretched out a bit.  That usually helps me last longer if I get to fuck her.  You guys who have control problems should try that.

But anyway, she was being an incredibly hot slut on this night. I had four fingers deep into her pussy and she was just flooding her pussy with lubrication.  I was nervous when she had me bring my cock closer to her face.  She has this expert touch with my cock...pumping me close to cumming at will and making me beg her to stop.  She licked me and sucked me as well.  I was way more on edge than I should have been if I was going to fuck her well.  But she got up on all fours and told me to fuck her and that I better not cum.  She made me promise I could control it, at least for a little while. I got into position, even having butterflies.  But her pussy was just perfect and my cock slipped in much easier than I expected.  

Two strokes.  Less than 5 seconds.  I stopped and begged her to stop moving too...but it had started. She could feel it...the pulses...there was no hope to hold it back.  I banged it into her as my cum oozed out.  She was cussing and complaining even as I drove it into her to finish.  I'll never forget a couple of things she said "What the fuck was that?" and later she said "Now, I'll have to go to bed completely unsatisfied.".  She told me how I hadn't even gotten started..."two strokes"..."i told you not to cum".  Then she told me to "get down there and clean it up".  God, I can't recall ever being so turned on AFTER I came.  I really went after her pussy and my cum...she fucked my face and told me to get every fucking drop.  Even though I was enjoying my cum I really did feel bad.  Her pussy was so spread open and in need of fucking.

The next morning she awoke horny but didn't even touch my cock.  She turned over and rubbed her ass against me, telling me to slip it in before I got too close to cumming.  I did...but i was careful.  After a few strokes I had to slow down again, she warned me not to cum.  And then when I had to slow down, she told me to get the extension because she didn't trust me.  I carefully slipped the extension over my aching cock and lubed it up good.  It's quite large and I don't want to hurt her.  I drove it in without feeling a thing while she moaned loudly and fucked back against it.  

This was a woman who was not going to go without being satisfied again!  I watched with amazement as the entire cock extension sunk into my lady's pussy.  She was fucking me back so hard that I could feel it in my head...even getting close to cumming once.  She was very vocal in her praise for that big cock...telling me how I could never last this long without the extension.  She came on that big cock and fucked me back hard.  I don't usually get to fuck her much after she cums...I usually cum at the same time and lose my hard on immediately.  She loved the extra fucking that I gave her with the extension.

It's becoming clear she loves this cock extension more than she lets on.  I think it really surprises her, but twice since then she's cum on the extension.  One time she got me close 8 or 10 times with her hand...giggling and teasing the whole time. She often makes me count strokes with her hand until I make her stop...once it's down to 2 or 3 strokes she knows she has all the power and she makes sure that I know that no orgasms will be permitted unless I ask permission!

When I'm like that, she doesn't even bother with fucking my naked cock at all..straight to the extension.  She has found that she can even use her clit massager when I'm using the extension.  When my cock is naked, I can't let her do that or I'll cum immediately.  Every time I've fucked her with the extension she has cum....whereas with my cock, it's probably less than half the time.

Last night was kind of a romantic mood for our sex.  We needed to be close and intimate.  But she soon realized that she needed a lot of oral too.  So once I got my tongue inside her, she began to get sluttier and sluttier...she got me close with her hand a few times.  Giggling and enjoying the effect it has on me.    Knowing my cock wouldn't be much good to her like that..she let me fuck her for a minute or two.  She kept telling me not to cum but soon realized that was futile...."I don't trust you.  Go get the extension" she said.  I slipped it on and came back to see her ass up on a pillow to give me a good angle.  I rubbed the huge head up and down her wet slit...teasing that clit a lot.  Then it slipped in, just as easy and natural as if it was mine.  She just moans softly as it goes impossibly deep.  I get butterflies again when she says again that she can't believe how good it feels, how much it feels like fucking me...except with a huge cock of course.  She came quickly as I was really figuring out how to fuck her with this huge extension.  I gave her long hard strokes that I didn't think she could handle...she handled them and loved them.  She came and I kept fucking, like I hadn't done for years.  She was thankful and loving every stroke.  

When I finally stopped and pulled out, I licked that cock extension to taste her cum.  She smiled and watched me clean it up.  She loves that.  I slipped my naked cock in her stretched out pussy for a few strokes...had to stop a lot and she laughed and told me to stop, that I couldn't be trusted. "That's enough", she said.  I love that toy...maybe I'm jealous of it too...but it has sure made us both happy.  She decides when I cum and my desire just builds and builds...and I can't tell you how amazing it is to know my woman is in control and is more than I can ever handle!!  

    

Bring on the Strap-On!

Well, I got my wish and my lady liked it a lot more than she expected to!  I have now been well and truly fucked with a strap-on dildo.  I had been hinting around but I didn't have to beg...she wanted it and she's glad she did it!  The dildo is a nice black one with a big head.  We have seen bigger ones on line, but it's bigger than my cock and seems to be just about right!  LOL.

Unfortunately our attempts at capturing video and stills were unsuccessful due to bad lighting, but we will remedy this next time and I'll share some photos.  I really do want to share the experience and to encourage those of you are who are curious to give it a try.  I really do have a better understanding of what it's like for her to take a cock inside her...there is this powerful sense of giving up control and subjugating my pleasure to hers (or least there would be if she had a real cock...lol).  But she did enjoy it and gain more pleasure than either of us expected.

First she came out wearing the strap on and a lovely lace camisole top.  She had me blindfolded and on my knees to suck "her cock".  It doesn't seem as though a woman would get real pleasure from something like that, but she did!  OK, we had inserted a small bullet vibrator behind the strap on cock for her to enjoy...but make no mistake about it, she grabbed my head and really fucked my mouth.  Making me gag a little...which elicited that wonderful naughty laugh of hers!  I sucked and stroked it like it was a real cock and I was focused on nothing but pleasuring its owner!  Holding my lady's wonderful ass while I suck a big cock that was driving towards my throat was incredibly intense and fulfilling!

But there was more to come...so much more.  We lubed up the big black cock really well and I assumed my position on my back with my ass up on a pillow and my legs up in the air.  She was strong and persistent, even while being careful not to hurt me.  At first, I was tense and the pain was too intense...I asked her to back off for a minute, but she was back soon, telling me to relax and adding lubricant.  Soon, my deep breaths relaxed me and I felt the wonderful sensation of that head entering me.  I was actually a little afraid she would be too nice and take it too easy on me...but she kept at it.  She wanted me and she knew I needed to be well fucked.

i moaned or gasped on every stroke, but that cock kept coming and opening me up.  She found a rhythm and kept working it in.  Every now and then the pressure on my prostate would make me feel like my cum was gushing out, but it wasn't.  She stroked me hard and pumped me quite a bit while driving it in...I had to beg her to stop several times because I didn't have permission to cum.  Finally, her rhythm took it all the way in...to the balls.  I couldn't believe it..and I don't think she could either....she was fucking me hard and steady and I had taken it all the way.

She told me she was glad that we had gotten the bigger dildo...and I was too.  I was somehow glad that it hurt some...but I did feel like a slut who wanted more cock.  I wanted to impress her by taking the entire length and feed our fantasies of me taking real cock regularly.  There was a sort of pride at stake, even as I gave myself to her completely.  There is a real submission that takes place and it is fair to say that she has assumed status above and beyond her usual position as my princess.  While taking that cock on that Saturday afternoon, I vowed to submit to a good fucking whenever she decides she wants it.  The fantasies began running through my head even as I took that dildo about taking strap ons from other women while she shares me...I was transitioned to being a slut for cock, cum, and dildos!!

Then she said it...while fucking me steady and deep, she asked me if I was her slut.  I said yes...yes...half gasping and half talking.  And again, it's weird....but I am proud of being her slut!  I'm proud that she wanted me to be her slut!!

I could have cum on numerous occasions while taking that big dildo.  But I begged her to stop stroking me.  After a good 10 or 15 minutes of fucking, she pulled out and told me she needed a good fucking.  After taking off the strap on and cleaning up a little bit, she told me not to come back to bed without bringing the big extension.  She wasn't ready for me to cum yet, but she needed to be filled up.  I beam with pride every time she expresses a need to be filled up with a big cock...

I put on the strap on and plunged the huge cock into her soaking wet pussy.  I kept wondering, how could she be THIS wet from just fucking me...but she was.  She was more than ready for that big cock. I couldn't feel a thing, but she was moaning and humping back into me as I drove that big cock into her.     It took her no time to cum...her finger on her clit and my big extension probing her...i felt pride again as she came.

When she came, she was NOT done.  I fucked her to the best of my ability with that big strap on.  She was of course even wetter and positively sloppy after cumming on that cock.  I kept on fucking her with her pulling me in and moaning.  At one point, she said breathlessly, "Why does it feel SO good?".  I just smiled and told her because it was twice the size of my cock and twice as thick and yet she felt my warmth and had my lips to kiss.  Perfect for a submissive cuckold who loves putting his princess on a pedestal.

Since then I've cum a couple of times, once in her hand and once after a very disappointing two strokes in her pussy.  That's another post, but she has cum on that extension two more times and I've never felt more under the control of her passion AND her heart.   She keeps insisting it will get even better, but it seems like heaven right now!

More to come soon with a few pictures as well...

A Cuckold Couple Discovering FemDom

I'm sorry it's been so long since I wrote anything on our blog.  I suppose we got distracted when we discovered Tumblr and the photo/caption blogs there about cuckolding and female dominant relationships.  We continue to explore and stretch our horizons.  While we love a threesome with the right guy, it's just so hard to find the perfect match, so we push our own kinky interest horizons with just the two of us as well.

My lady knows I'm bi and crave cock sometimes...hell, she is into me being with guys at least as much as I am!  And she likes to tease me about how much I want cock.  So our talking soon progressed to anal play with toys and such.  I soon had to admit that I wanted her to fuck me with a strap on.

We are at a point in our relationship where she likes to control my every orgasm.  Orgasm denial is a big thing for us.  She gets any and all orgasms she wants, and I usually wait a week or more between orgasms.  She has grown to enjoy this position of power more and more.  She likes to torture and tease me and has become a master of it.  One problem has been that she prefers to cum on my cock, but I just don't have the control to fuck her much without cumming.

She is such an amazing lover that she doesn't even let that stand in the way, she enjoys teasing and humiliating me when I cum too fast.  She likes to make me count the strokes until I have to stop...or count the number of times she pumps me with her hand before I can't stand it anymore.  Typically she quickly works me down from over 100 to 6 or 7 strokes before I have to make it stop.  A few times we have screwed it up and she goes one stroke too far...resulting in my ruined orgasm.  She won't pump me to completion, but the cum sort of oozes out and I don't really have the relief of an orgasm.  Some of  you cuckolds or subs will know what an intense turn-on that kind of teasing is.

As a good sub, I am always trying to give her what she wants...good hard fucking without my cumming too fast.  So I read about these extensions that go over your cock and are thick enough that the man doesn't cum but the woman gets a good fucking.  I shopped and found a really nice one...very expensive and realistic, premium silicone...and quite big too.  It took a little practice, but now she cums every time I fuck her with this extension and I usually don't cum anymore.  You can see from the picture below what she likes about the extension.

As you can see, the extension basically doubles the size of my cock.  And it's nice and thick too.  A tip to you ladies out there who sometimes complain that dildos can be too cold...these expensive silicone extensions quickly assume body temperature.  She loves that.  The extension has been a wonderful addition to our sex life...it is pretty thick so I usually don't cum (though sometimes I have).

Perhaps the best part for me is that she chooses when she fucks the extension or when I just give her oral to get her off.  We have found a new lover for her, so hopefully you'll read more about him soon.  He is bi and loves to be sucked by man and woman...so we'll have a blast with that.  And he's already proven to have much better control than I do during sex.  We are seeing him again this weekend.

I am really enjoying how our relationship has become female led...she seeks out and gets the pleasures that she needs and that in turn takes me to new heights of arousal.  I expect to give her the ultimate control soon...she will be fucking me with a strap-on dildo really soon.  Stay tuned.

Feel free to send me questions or emails...would be wonderful to get to know more couples who are into this part of the lifestyle.

Anticipation - A Cuckold's Adrenalin

As I told my lady recently, we need more ammunition for my blog!  She agreed and we laughed about it.  We did have some fun at Halloween, but it was pretty low key...more about drinking and laughing than sex.  However, it is always a thrill for me to go out with her to a lifestyle event...I just love seeing her in a sexual atmosphere...love the hands on her, the kisses, the flirting.  She knows I love that and has fun with it.  We were hanging out with a fun and sexy couple, the female member of which is bi, so I am hoping to see her enjoying some female on female play again soon.  But as it was, she shared her amazing breasts with several fun people that night and I watched and glowed with the pride that only a cuckold knows!

We are making plans for a great weekend.  Her first and hopefully regular black lover will be joining us  along with his girlfriend for dinner and play on Saturday night.  I enjoy talking to the female half of the couple.  She and I do a lot of the planning...she loves sharing her man and he is certainly able to satisfy two ladies at once.  We enjoy getting closer with our playmates so there is a higher comfort level, more relaxation, and the opportunity for better and better sex.  At times, I have had to encourage my lady to play, but not with this guy.  She took no convincing at all and is looking forward to a night of being the center of attention.  It is times like this when I know she enjoys the freedom and power of the cuckold lifestyle and being my hot lady.

As with anyone who keeps a blog about sexual escapades or just about any cuckold, I pretty much live in a high state of sexual arousal.  So anticipation isn't new to me, but at times like this it runs amuck.  She is so good at making me crazy anyway, and the interaction between the two of them on Saturday will take me to new heights.  As I wrote before, she loves kissing him...they kissed a lot on the first night and her hands were all over his muscular body.  Having a whole evening of privacy, I expect she will get her fill of his mouth, his body, and his cock.  I will ask to be teased, but I don't have to ask...she knows how to do it and she is getting better at controlling my sex drive and my orgasms.  So, wish us luck for a great night...and I will share the highlights, including some pictures.

I'll be back blogging in a few days.  Feel free to drop me a note...

A Cuckold in Chastity

Well, I have disclosed so much in this blog, I might as well admit that I also enjoy being in chastity for my lady!  For the last year or so, we have been playing with keeping me locked in a chastity device.  We aren't as hard core about it as some...a few days at a time is our maximum so far.  But I do love the control that it gives my lady and the control I lose over my own orgasms.  As a cuckold, I have already put my lady firmly in control...so I view the chastity as another level of that control and also as a way to prolong and delay my own pleasure.

The kind we use is a CB3000.  It's plastic and the tube over the cock is essentially secured to a ring behind the balls.  This way, if my cock tries to harden it pulls on the anchor ring and squeezes my balls.  It can be quite painful and it certainly discourages a hard on.  After playing with this and enjoying being teased for sort of a weekend at a time, I am now locked up for a whole 4 day business trip.  You can see the device in the pic below...my caged cock on her amazing tits!

We are building up to what should be a wonderful weekend...a Lifestyle Halloween party at a nearby swingers club.  My girl will bring along another date and we will also be hanging out with another couple we know.  My lady will be the center of attention and she will no doubt tease me mercilessly...because she knows I love that so much!

These few days building up to it are driving me completely insane.  I want to stroke my cock so much...but that's impossible in the cage.  Today I had the extra torment of chatting with the guy we hope to be our next playmate.  Like me, he is away on a business trip.  She has met him for lunch, but we haven't played together yet.  The thing is...this guy has the biggest cock I've ever seen (at least outside the movies or freakish website pics).  He is huge...over 9 inches and more than 6 inches around.  He likes to show it off on webcam...so I've seen him pump it by webcam a few times.  This morning he came for me online...but I couldn't even touch mine.  He loves big tits...so he is anxious to slap that thick piece of meat between my lady's tits.  But he also knows how to tease me...he tells me that I will be sucking her juices off his giant cock, as well as guiding it into her pussy.  He also told me that he loves giving facials and I should expect to have my face slapped by that massive cock too.

All these things give me chills and butterflies.  I don't know what it means that I am more into big cocks than my lady is...but I am fairly sure she will love fucking this hung stud.  I am counting the days til he's back in town and I was flattered to hear how turned on he is by the thought of BOTH me and my lady servicing his massive cock.

Once again, I know I am the luckiest man alive.  My lady loves knowing that I enjoy sucking cock and she is more than happy to indulge my fantasies.  I suppose she has it pretty good too...as I constantly remind her, she can fuck any man she wants, any time she wants and still have me waiting for her, loving her, and doing my best to fulfill every desire!  Yes, I am a cuckold...and being in touch with these needs and fantasies has only made my sex life better!

I hope someone out there is enjoying this blog.  If you have any ideas for other blogs I should follow or how to get better get the word out on this one..please email me at curiousrob9900@yahoo.com.